Darkness surrounds me; my ever-present companion, both the bearer and child of my scorched and withered being.
Inky pools of lesser light that beckon for me to breach them. A soft subtle whisper of promised indulgence; the caress of a dank breath never to be drawn that tugs at my soul; the gentle rustlings of the unknown scuttling though my mind that speak of a dusky beauty – things that never were but should always have been.
Dare I step closer only to find myself enamored by the all consuming draw of your call? Do I finally release the pang that I have held so dear and tender to me these years gone by? Do I allow you to exist in the light or shall I surrender to the smothering depths of a mind already drowned in madness?
The pull of the shadows is such a thing of comfort as to blanket itself around me while it slowly suckles my very being into non-existence. But the exquisite embrace this lack of existence offers is such a supple and soothing one; to fade to obscurity, what a delight that would be, yet an injustice to all that you would have been. Year upon agonizing year I have listened to your call and let it go unanswered, keeping hidden the unbridled desire to glance upon the you that never was.
There may not be a path that leads back to the dimmer shallows once I allow myself this wanton freedom, though I do not know I would wish to seek one. My poor darling Angel who has lived in a trapped darkness for so long, will you no longer torture me if I allow this coupling its place, or will you still haunt every step I lay upon a ground you shall never touch, breathe the breadth you shall never have, feel and see the beauty that you can never know?
Nina D'Arcangela
Sotet Angyal 
March 27th, 2012 at 10:02 pm
Heart wrenching, Nina, & somehow so stunning. I’m with you all the way on this one.
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March 28th, 2012 at 10:19 am
Thank you Joe – it’s a small piece of a much larger rambling… but I believe it delivers it’s message well. Thank you as always for your gracious words 🙂
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March 27th, 2012 at 10:07 pm
Haunting and totally amazing! Got goosebumps reading this, well-versed and captivating.
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March 28th, 2012 at 10:21 am
Thank you April! Coming from The Blackheart Poetress, I’ll take that as quite a compliment! 🙂
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March 28th, 2012 at 10:42 am
Wow Nina, thank you so much! It’s amazing. I need to do a lot of catching up on your blog.
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March 28th, 2012 at 10:50 am
You be careful or I’m going to have to start calling you The Sweetheart Poetess! LOL
Thank you April – I don’t publish much, but most of it is dark rambling from a twisted place inside of me… it’s the part I like best! 😉
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March 28th, 2012 at 1:47 pm
I’ll take that! You are very welcome. I like to call that part of me “the beast” 😛
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March 28th, 2012 at 1:49 pm
I often write of “my beast” – it’s the savory bit ;}
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April 9th, 2012 at 2:40 pm
Oh D’arc One, your ‘voice’ is so d’arcly poetic. *wulven smiel* And, I have to admit, I do so enjoy the sense of endless torture that is pervasive in your work. You are truly a Dread to be reckoned with. *dreadful applause for another job well done*
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April 9th, 2012 at 3:06 pm
Such gracious words from the Lord of Wulves, I am honored indeed! With genuine sincerity, thank you Daemonwulf. You’re writing is stunning, and I am humbled that you find my dark prose enjoyable. :}
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April 9th, 2012 at 6:32 pm
*aw-shucks look* You know how to make a wulf’s large ears grow larger…
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April 9th, 2012 at 7:16 pm
All the better to hear me with… :}
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April 9th, 2012 at 2:41 pm
Of course, I mean *smile* not *smiel*…
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April 9th, 2012 at 7:18 pm
I’ll take a little smeil on my bagel.. oh, wait, that’s schmear… ;}
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April 13th, 2012 at 3:44 pm
Sun-dried tomato cream cheese from Au Bon Pain… *oh-the-pain-the-PAIN! face* It’s the best to schmear you with my dear…
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April 13th, 2012 at 9:04 pm
:}~
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April 10th, 2012 at 2:11 pm
Wrought with long endured pain, no escape , consuming darkness
a beautiful piece Nina
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April 10th, 2012 at 3:27 pm
Thank you for your generous words Leslie, they are very gratefully appreciated! :}
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